My how time flies!

I always knew I would be a teacher, or work in the education field.  What I never expected was that I would be part of the changes occurring in education.  My brain is saturated with strategies and data and thoughts, and all I seem to want to do is teach.  Maybe I need to teach a class on something I am good at.  The problem with that is that I am good a only a couple of things: teaching and talking.  So maybe this whole coaching thing is the right venue for me.  Yet, why is there this annoying voice telling me you can do more, be more. 

My husband said the saddest thing to me the other day.  It was sad for the same reason all things are sad; it was true. I could have everything perfect, tidy, and "done" and still wouldn't be happy.  I am really trying to figure this out, the whole happiness/life balance thing.  I am such a rule follower, a people-pleaser, a "yes" kind of girl.  You think it would be easy to just do your job and do it well.  Guess it's not. 

This past year has really made me re-think what my role is in education.  If I continue on the way education is changing, I risk losing the teacher in me.  But then I think, if I continue to be part of the change in education, I can make it successful for all kids.   I guess  in the end, I will always be in the moment and that moment will always have a little tinge of doubt hopefully overshadowed by all the possibilities that could be.